| Hey Livejournal |
[Sep. 29th, 2009|11:12 pm] |
Hey Livejournal remember when I was was an angsty teenager undergrad?!
Or when I was getting married legally registered?!
Yeah, me neither!!
Oh, and DC, I'll be living in you starting 30 days from now.... |
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| dunzo |
[Apr. 7th, 2008|05:42 pm] |
Dear Livejournal,
I am getting married(well, legally registered...but I'll take it). I am a permanent Prague resident. America, its been swell, I'll see you when I visit(probably this October).
Until next time...
Devo |
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| still alive |
[Jun. 29th, 2007|12:02 am] |
Hi LJ. I'm still alive. I just started checking you again. i love prague. Find out why at pragueislife.blogspot.com
love devo |
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| Ummm, my prague blog |
[Jan. 6th, 2007|12:03 am] |
This is to inform those in livejournal land that I have moved to Prague and started a Prague blog at: pragueislife.blogspot.com
again, thats: pragueislife.blogspot.com
check it out. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 9th, 2006|10:39 am] |
oh yeah, did i mention that im going to see madonna in philly in july?
well, if i didn't then, i have now. |
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| nudge, nudge |
[Jun. 9th, 2006|10:19 am] |
So I got a nudge from Meg, forcing me to update. So here it is:
I still live in the same house.
Chico, the mexican, just moved in.
I'm going to DC today for pride, and to meet a guy that I have been talking to for about a month and a half.
His name is Sasha.
He's Austrian.
He went to Harvard.
He's a coporate lawyer.
He has blue eyes.
He's 28.
I plan on moving to NYC in 6 months, but I don't have job or a place to live yet.
I'm getting my certification to teach ESL in August.
I'm going to teach ESL in NYC.
If you know of a place for me to live in NYC in January, and could help me out, I would adore you.
The guy I was going to move to NYC with hasn't emailed me back.
I think he is dead in Paris, because he is Persian(brown).
I still want to do independent film.
I am happy.
I like my job.
I still hate Tyghe.
I am hungover.
See, nothing's changed. But for all of you who haven't heard from me in a while, its good to know that some things are still the same. |
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| My triumphrant return |
[Mar. 22nd, 2006|06:59 pm] |
I come to live journal weeks at a time. Its kind of weird.
Turtle and Cari's wedding was so beautiful. I cried like three times. I love how it was inter-faith, incorporating both presbyterian and jewish faiths. At the reception they had all the tables named after Beatle's songs. I was sitting at Something and they were sitting at Two of Us. How adorable is that!!! The bride and groom thought it great to make special brownies for a select few, and I thought it great to eat two and a half. I totally forgot about eating them and could not justify my behavior. I had no idea why I felt the way I did, until Turtle asked me about them. I ate a lot of food and the open bar was perfect. I have never been to a wedding that is so perfect for the couple. By the end of the night I had eaten 5 bags of cookies. Those were the best cookies I'd ever eaten.
I hate situations that are so unhealthy for me, yet I think it best to stay in those situations for the benefit of another. No more of that.
23-28, job or grad school, relationship and goal oriented, fun, chill, penis. That's all I require. Is that too much?
I hate school. |
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| Living |
[Mar. 22nd, 2006|06:32 pm] |
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Who needs a place to live next year. I'm going to stay in my house until January, but I can't get a six month lease, so who is going to be here next year, and is willing to sign a year long lease? Let me know!! |
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| not yet |
[Mar. 11th, 2006|07:34 pm] |
Back from the cruise and my god was it amazing. It was exactly what I needed: 7 days of 1700 passengers w/ 85% of them being spring breakers. Yes there were scandals, and yes there was drama, and NO I wasn't involved in either of them.(as expected)
Yes I will update with details, but as of now I have: clothes to unpack, laundry to do, a room to clean, a body to wash, and a life to organize all in 3.5 hours. I should be able to do it mainly because of the cheap rum I will be consuming.
I can't wait to be in DC for the wedding in a week. Another shitshow for the month of March. |
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| I'm on break... |
[Mar. 2nd, 2006|03:58 pm] |
...except for the hours of rehearsals I have this tonight. Today I took 2 exams for which I studied about 45 minutes total. I know I passed them both, and thats all I aimed to do.
I may be leaving tomorrow to go to Columbia and stay at USC for the night then head to Charleston on Saturday morning. I am so excited for this fucking cruise. Its going to be perfect. I'm already there in my head.
Out to enjoy the 70 degree weather. |
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| Briefly |
[Feb. 20th, 2006|09:54 pm] |
So I feel totally different than I did on Saturday. Im dating Kirk, and he has made my life. Its only been 36 hours since we have officially started dating, but we have a three year relationship already built up to this point. He makes me feel good inside.
Also, I could not care less about school. I'm not going to use my degree, so I don't really care about my grades. I just need that piece of paper. Actually I don't really need it, but I'm going to get it, so just passing is enough for me. This means I'm not going to be stressed about school at all, I'm not going to be using most of my free time to do work, and I'm going to be exponentially happier.
Cozumel, Grand Cayman Island and Key West in 11 days. |
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| My insides |
[Feb. 18th, 2006|02:41 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  I have no fucking clue | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Frou Frou-Let Go | ] |
Have you ever felt sad, depressed, stressed, lonely, unwanted, barren, lost...you know a whole soup of terribly negative feelings that a psychiatrist would give you happy medication for, yet you are ever so passionate? And all you want to do is laugh, cry, scream, run, punch a hole in a wall, jump off a building into a bed of feathers, hold the one you love so close that you can feel their blood flowing through their veins, smile so big that your face hurts, write a book of poetry for no one to read, run through the woods while branches lacerate your face but it feeling like heaven? Thats exactly how I feel right now, and I have no clue what to do.
I want to drop everything and run away from this place, these people, these situations, but then I'll be running forever. I'm still going to feel the same, the only thing that would be different is the setting.
I don't want to ignore my feelings/numb myself...anymore. Its ineffective. Its just going to lead to a gigantic breakdown somewhere down the road when I've truly convinced myself I'm happy.
I feel like pushing my way through a crowd until I make it to the front, and pass out on the ground allowing each and every person to have one tiny solitary piece of me, which ever piece they want, until there's nothing left but a void. An empty hole where I used to lay. Perhaps this process has already begun.
I have so many deep, intense feelings, and no one to share them with. No one to give them to. No one to reciprocate. No laugh, no tears, no shrill, no jabs, no leaps, no flow, no face pains, no writing, no lacerations, no heaven, no nothing.
This is me. This is my life. I can only assume this is how I'm supposed to live. Nothing's permanent.
Wow, that felt really good. So good that I need to smoke a cigarette. |
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| Oh yeah |
[Feb. 2nd, 2006|02:45 pm] |
I'm considering buying a laptop. It may be time for me to move on to a Mac.
I'm am currently skipping my first class this semester. Not something I need to make habitual. |
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| concerts |
[Feb. 2nd, 2006|02:31 pm] |
So I just bought 100 bux worth of concert tickets.
I will be seeing The Deftones on March 1st in Norfolk, Nine Inch Nails in Richmond on the 14th of March, and Prodigy on the 23rd of March in DC.
I am also going on a cruis in March.
I'm looking forward to March.
I'm going to be in DC from tomorrow evening until Sunday afternoon. Hit up the cellie. |
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[Jan. 24th, 2006|07:05 pm] |
I think my computer has a virus so off to IT it will go.
In the next two and a half weeks I will:
-teach myself the basics of piano; enough so that I can play the notes I have to sing for my vocal lessons
-choreograph a dance
-work on my dance technique
-go to DC for a weekend
-drunk dial 4 people I haven't talked to in a while
-sleep in my bed for 2 nights in a row and not on the couch
-watch 5 movies on my Netflix queue
Those all seem like pretty realistic goals to me. |
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| Stolen from the boi who daydreams |
[Jan. 8th, 2006|12:29 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  complacent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Ben Harper-Sexual Healing | ] |
Because I know more about others than they know about me:
10 random things about me:
1. I have psoriasis
2. I shake my right leg whenever I fall asleep
3. I color coordinate all of my undergarments, from my t's/beaters to my socks
4. I play with my toenails whenever I poop
5. I hate bright light
6. Most of my dreams are lucid
7. I rarely see a movie that I don't like/can't appreciate
8. I went to 3 high schools
9. I lost my virginity at 12- TWICE!!
10. I used to be hydrophobic
9 ways to win my heart:
1. Spontaneity
2. Honesty
3. An appreciation for all of mankind
4. Being a hippie
5. Humor
6. Intelligence
7. Being attractive
8. Being well-rounded
9. Being able to dish it and take it
8 things I want to do before I die:
1. Adopt 2 little Chinese kids
2. Act in tons of independent films
3. Live like an expatriate in Paris like The Lost Generation
4. Go to Africa
5. Make a name for myself
6. Be enlightened
7. Be able to give millions of dollars to a worth cause
8. Enlighten
7 things that annoy me:
1. Being called a liar
2. Theft from a person or a personal business
3. Bad drivers
4. People who sing songs even though they don't know the lyrics
5. Ignorance
6. Friends who aren't as open to me as I to them/people who pretend to be my friend
7. Familial and governmental paternalism
6 things I believe in:
1. Me
2. Adaptation
3. Individual freedoms
4. Love
5. Living in the moment
6. Philosophic entropy
5 things I'm afraid of:
1. Crashing and burning
2. The police/government
3. Old age
4. Being vulnerable in any sense
5. Depression
4 of my favorite items in this room:
1. My white-framed aviators
2. My computer
3. My wardrobe
4. My wall of pictures
3 things I do everyday:
1. Smile
2. Swoon(in the sense of becoming enraptured, mostly with love)
3. Dream
2 things I want to do right now:
1. Move to NYC
2. Act
1 person I want to see right now:
1. Alexandra Rittenhouse
Last night I had a three act dream. There were two intermission of me waking up, and upon returning the dream would pick up really close to where it left off. Also every act, excluding the first obviously, referenced the previous. The whole objective was to get the boy. At the end of the second act I thought I had him, and we were making out, but the guy ended up being someone else, and I was disappointed. The third act brought everything together with me coming so close to getting to the boy, but I woke up.
When my phone rings, it plays "We Like to Party." |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 6th, 2006|11:39 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Ashanti-Happy | ] |
Last night I went to The Wave for the first time in months. I had a very good time at the beginning, until I started thinking about the boy, and how he hasn't responded to my email yet. I started getting really sad. Thankfully I ran into Mother David(who knows the boy very well) who gave me the best advice ever. He told me to go out there and have fun. Dance, make out, even hook up with other people because as soon as I stop obsessing, he will come to me. I do believe he used the statement, "he doesn't respond well to direct sunlight." I definitely shined really bright on him with the email. I must say, it was a little intense, and the no reaction is totally what I expected, but its still difficult for me. It will all come to a head when he returns for school. So heeding Mother David's advice I went out there. I danced. I made out. I didn't hook up. I enjoyed the rest of my time there. I made out with this kid Drew who had dark hair minus his platinum blond bangs. He is a freshman at Tech. He was skinnier than Lindsay Lohan.
They played a lot of ABBA. Even Man of the Midnight. House would've loved it.
In the past 2 months I've lost 20 pounds. The height of my weight gain was around homecoming. Now I'm back at a cool 135 and I feel and look good.
I'm excited about school.
I really need to try out for the Real World again.
I have 3 sets of friends getting married this year. When are Turtle and Carrie sending out invites? Otter called me the other day for my address info and such, and I can only assume that it was for this reason. |
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| Im going to get my kix in '06 |
[Jan. 2nd, 2006|11:43 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | great | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Led Zeppelin-Over the HIlls and Far Away | ] |
Happy New Year to you all. I celebrated the end of '05 and the beginning of '06 in Charlottesville at a party where I saw a bunch of old friends and made some new ones. I went up with Rob. It was a great feeling knowing that we could go to a party where we don't know most of the people there, and straight run it. Mr. Forrest had all the girls talking to him, and all of their boyfriends jealous. I was teaching people dance steps and won my first-ever Jig Off. Between the two of us we consumed a bottle of Jack, two bottles of champagne, a bottle of wine and numerous beers. At about 3 am, Rob turns to me and says, "Lets drive back to Williamsburg," and we did. Well, Rob drove and I slept. There are tons more stories that go along with that night, but you'll have to contact me for details. One thing I did notice was how much hotter the girls were than the guys. Even those in relationships. This makes me question the dynamics of UVA. Is it like that all over, where the girls are way hotter than the guys they date, because if so, I can't deny that I'm a lot jealous.
I have made very few resolutions for this year and I feel they are all easy to fulfill:
1. Keep growing. I grew a lot in 2005, particularly in the last month and a half. I can see and feel the maturity that has taken place and I like it. I like it so much that I want it to continue throughout '06.
B. Stay happy. Smile and laugh as much as possible. Its not like these are things I have trouble doing. I love laughing, and everyday at work at least one table tells me how great my smile is.
III. Be more honest with myself. For a great while in '05 I lied to myself about numerous things. I lied most about how happy I was. I lied to have people believe I was happier than I actually was. And I lied to myself to try and trick myself into thinking I was happier than I actually was. It was very unhealthy. I also lied to myself about my bad habits and my body image. I'm going to let all of that die with '05.
This year should be a good one. I'm glad that I am in the situation I am in right now, as far as still being in Williamsburg. It has granted me the opportunity to see other people grow, that I would not have the chance to experience, like Ben Black, Hunter, Sean Charles, Jacob, Sam, Natron, Cookie, etc. Still being around doesn't make me feel old, just grateful.
I'm thinking I need to calm down on the mindless straight boys. They can be a lot of fun, only because I love the challenge, but every situation ends up the same and that becomes annoying. I should probably settle down anyway. I only know one person that I want to be with, and I'm about to send him an email declaring my desire to be with him. Its the first major thing I'm doing in '06. It excites me very much.
Its all so positive. |
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| Stuff and Junk |
[Dec. 26th, 2005|11:46 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | pleased | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Madonna-Sorry | ] |
So I have enough money to pay off my loan so I can get the hold off of my account, thanks to Father Christmas. I made him my bitch.
I realized that I am going to be the drunk uncle. Yesterday I could not deal with my mom and her "boyfriend" at all unless I was drinking. I started drinking gin at 1 and by dinner I had finished my bottle and moved on to Jack Daniels. My mom's "boyfriend" turned to me at one point in the day and said, "Are you going to come to our wedding next year?" I turned and looked at him with a blank stare on my face and said, "Sure." I turn away and take a big gulp of my Jack and Coke. All day my niece and nephews were asking me if they could have a sip of my drink and I had to tell them no, because it was "special, and yes you are special too, but not special enough." My two year old nephew hates me because I'm never around and he's not used to me, so I try to make him cry as much as possible.
Whilst being drunk over the holidays, I realized that my life is so much the same as it was in high school, except then people had the balls to tell me that they didn't like me, and I respected that. Now people who don't like me are for some reason too intimidated by my personality to admit that they don't like me, so they are friendly to me. I'm sooo not that fake.
I need to put my laundry away.
Maybe Charlottesville for NYE? I'm still not sure yet.
I am as happy as my life will allow me to be right now.
I got a call from a friend that I grew up with on thursday. He left a voice mail but no phone number. It made me sad. |
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[Dec. 20th, 2005|01:18 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  excited | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Madonna-Like It or Not | ] |
So if all goes according to plan, I won't have any Monday, Wednesday, Friday classes next semester. Granted I'll have class from 11-5 on Tuesdays and Thursdays, but whatevs, its totally worth it. I'll get to stay working at Berret's, and I'll get a 4 day weekend every week. AND on Mondays, Berret's is closed so I'll get that entire day devoted to what I need to do, which will probably be schoolwork I didn't do Friday-Sunday. This will be the first semester where I will actually enjoy every single one of my classes as well. I'm taking(in order of my T R schedule) The Holocaust first at 11, which I'm going to take pass/fail, History of Europe since 1945, Jazz Dance again because its my favorite type of dance, and you can take dance classes multiple times, and Musical Theater 1 to end the day by 5 pm, leaving me with not enough time to make it to work, but with plenty of time to shower and make it to pint night on Tuesdays and $4 Cocktails on Thursdays. Simply marvelous.
But there is one glitch in the whole thing. I have a $2500 hold on my account from a loan I allowed myself to forget to pay. I have over half of it already, and I'll be able to make the rest by the time classes begin, but I hope that transfers don't come in and take up the spaces I want in my classes. Fuckers. I hope it will all work out.
I still have no plans for New Year's. I wish I could go to New York, but now I won't be able to afford it. I've never spent New Year's in DC or Richmond, so I wouldn't mind being in either of those cities. 11 days.
Spring Break secured. 7 day cruise to Key West, Cozumel, and Grand Caymen Island. March could not come any faster.
I'm very excited about my choreography for Pointe Blank. Its to Madonna's "Like It or Not" off of Confessions on a Dance Floor. AND today I started video taping my dancing. Its new for me in the choreographing process. Normally I would just write it down. Now I can pick out moves from any time and construct a sound piece from them. Its going to be so sexy.
No complaints. |
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